Reaching out and reaching in; holding out, holding in
What doesn't transmit light creates its own darkness...
I can't stop thinking about these words. They fascinate and enthrall me. I feel like I'm on the edge of something really huge, really important...if only to me. I can't put my finger on it right now, but it's there...looming.
As I get older, I realize that I don't have answers for anyone but myself. I'm not going to look for other people's answers or other people's truths any more. Nor will I accept their answers or truths as my own. It's every one for themselves. Self-interest is the new black.
Lately, I find myself caring less and less about my own desires and more about my contribution to the world. What is my purpose? What is my role? The only answer I have found is this: my life is my message.
What doesn't transmit light creates its own darkness...
Life is made up of grand, sweeping gestures. Huge, load carrying moments: births, deaths, loves, betrayals, victories, defeats...but it is also made up of small, even inconsequential actions. Quiet, anonymous moments. And lately, I've realized that neither is more important than the other. Looking at my life, I thought, "Is this it?" And had an epiphany. Yes, this is it. This is all there is, this one life, this one haphazard collection of moments - big and small. This predetermined time that can slip through our fingers un-lived if we aren't careful.
What doesn't transmit light creates its own darkness...
More often than not, we are the instruments of our own destruction and I refuse to be that any more. Because, this is all there is. My past is filled with big moments that have changed me for better and for worse, forever. There are also small moments that had a huge impact. Lately, it's the small moments I've been focusing on. I don't have any illusions about what I can and cannot do, what I am willing to do and am not willing to do. I think the big moments simply come to you, usually without warning, and you're measured by how you react to them. You get the small moments to prepare. They're practice.
Let go of the things you regret, the moments you feel you failed. Let go of the things you use to bully or shame yourself into being a better person. That's the great thing about life - there always seems to be another chance. There's always another person, another job, another love, another moment when you can choose who you want to be and declare it to the world. We are able to constantly re-invent ourselves. The mistakes you made once upon a time don't have to follow you around for the rest of your life unless you want them to. The past has done just that - it has passed.
What doesn't transmit light creates its own darkness...
And from here on, refuse to dwell in the darkness.
I can't stop thinking about these words. They fascinate and enthrall me. I feel like I'm on the edge of something really huge, really important...if only to me. I can't put my finger on it right now, but it's there...looming.
As I get older, I realize that I don't have answers for anyone but myself. I'm not going to look for other people's answers or other people's truths any more. Nor will I accept their answers or truths as my own. It's every one for themselves. Self-interest is the new black.
Lately, I find myself caring less and less about my own desires and more about my contribution to the world. What is my purpose? What is my role? The only answer I have found is this: my life is my message.
What doesn't transmit light creates its own darkness...
Life is made up of grand, sweeping gestures. Huge, load carrying moments: births, deaths, loves, betrayals, victories, defeats...but it is also made up of small, even inconsequential actions. Quiet, anonymous moments. And lately, I've realized that neither is more important than the other. Looking at my life, I thought, "Is this it?" And had an epiphany. Yes, this is it. This is all there is, this one life, this one haphazard collection of moments - big and small. This predetermined time that can slip through our fingers un-lived if we aren't careful.
What doesn't transmit light creates its own darkness...
More often than not, we are the instruments of our own destruction and I refuse to be that any more. Because, this is all there is. My past is filled with big moments that have changed me for better and for worse, forever. There are also small moments that had a huge impact. Lately, it's the small moments I've been focusing on. I don't have any illusions about what I can and cannot do, what I am willing to do and am not willing to do. I think the big moments simply come to you, usually without warning, and you're measured by how you react to them. You get the small moments to prepare. They're practice.
Let go of the things you regret, the moments you feel you failed. Let go of the things you use to bully or shame yourself into being a better person. That's the great thing about life - there always seems to be another chance. There's always another person, another job, another love, another moment when you can choose who you want to be and declare it to the world. We are able to constantly re-invent ourselves. The mistakes you made once upon a time don't have to follow you around for the rest of your life unless you want them to. The past has done just that - it has passed.
What doesn't transmit light creates its own darkness...
And from here on, refuse to dwell in the darkness.
posted by kcterrilynn at 8:11 AM
15 Comments:
And now I'm thinking that!! Damn, that's a good quote...
How very true.
Maybe your blog is your purpose. I'm not kidding.
Great quote, BTW.
Very powerful quote KC! I know what I believe to be the "light" of the world, but that is "my" belief and you're looking for your's! :)
That is a great post. It is very relevant in my life right now, that's for sure! That was quite inspiring. It's your best yet.
Nice thoughts. "This is all there is," is a good place to wind up, especially when you realize that "this" is so wonderful.
That's one of the nicest posts I've ever read. Great writing, and I agree with every word.
you had me at hello. actually i was lost after the first sentence but i enjoyed it quite a bit! how are you classes going? any luck with the math?!?!? i can tutor you for free...just prefer that we are both naked thats all.
Good Stuff! Thanks for Sharing. I'm going to read that one over and over again!
Wow, I loved this Terri. I've been pondering these very similar thoughts lately but you stated them so much more eloquently than I ever could.
love it!
Wonderful post, what a great read!
I really loved that text.
A lovely piece of your mind, so shamelessly shared.
Thanks.
Everyone, thank you for the great feedback. Sometimes when I post things I wonder if anyone is really reading it or if it's just out there in the void. Thanks for really reading.
I followed your blog from the vixen's blog. Wow. I am impressed. Thank you so much! You brightened me day.
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